{"id":8189,"date":"2026-06-04T13:58:25","date_gmt":"2026-06-04T04:58:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/?p=8189"},"modified":"2026-06-04T16:16:44","modified_gmt":"2026-06-04T07:16:44","slug":"baris-noah-episode-2-shape-of-memory","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/baris-noah-episode-2-shape-of-memory\/","title":{"rendered":"B\u00f6l\u00fcm 2 \u2014 Babas\u0131z Bir Ev\u3000\u3000Ankara\u2019da kalan sessizlik ve ailenin hat\u0131ras\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, sessizlik \u00e7oktan i\u00e7eri yerle\u015fmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sabah \u00e7\u0131karken a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 kap\u0131n\u0131n ayn\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yine de d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ev, sanki biraz farkl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ak\u015fam \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 zeminin \u00fcst\u00fcnde uzun uzun uzan\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pencerenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan uzak arabalar\u0131n sesi kesilip geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir yerlerden k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f so\u011fan kokusu r\u00fczg\u00e2rla i\u00e7eri s\u0131z\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ankara\u2019da ak\u015fam, \u015fehrin yava\u015f yava\u015f s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamand\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama bu evin i\u00e7inde, zaman sanki daha \u00f6nce durmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f kap\u0131da ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir s\u00fcre \u00f6ylece kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayn\u0131 ev.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayn\u0131 koku.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayn\u0131 duvarlar.<\/p>\n\n\n

\n
\"Quiet
The evening light settled gently over the quiet table.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Ama\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bug\u00fcn, bo\u015fluklar daha belirgindi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey eksilmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sandalyeler, tabaklar, raflar\u2026 hepsi yerli yerindeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yine de g\u00f6z, olanlara de\u011fil, olmayanlara tak\u0131l\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mutfaktan \u00e7orba kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rma sesi geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Metal ka\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n tencereye de\u011fen o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sesi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00fczenliydi.<\/p>\n\n\n

\n
\"Steaming
The steam rose quietly into the fading evening light.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Sanki bir \u015feyi yerinde tutuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her g\u00fcn ayn\u0131 sesle, bir \u015feyin da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 engelliyor gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f i\u00e7eri girince, Emine arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nmeden konu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cGeldin mi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cEvet.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

O kadar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mercimek \u00e7orbas\u0131n\u0131n kokusu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dilimlenmi\u015f ekmek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kenar\u0131ndan hafif k\u0131r\u0131k beyaz bir tabak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Y\u0131llard\u0131r de\u011fi\u015fmeyen bir masa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

De\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama i\u00e7indeki bir \u015fey yerle\u015fmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f oturdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6n\u00fcndeki buhara bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6n\u00fcnde s\u0131cakl\u0131k vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u00e7inde yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Buhar y\u00fckselip kayboluyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u00e7inde kalan ise yerinden k\u0131p\u0131rdam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O anda, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundan bir \u015fey ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayn\u0131 masa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck hali.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bir kol.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ekme\u011fi b\u00f6len b\u00fcy\u00fck bir el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Al\u00e7ak, net bir ses.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama y\u00fcz yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir anda da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Suya dokundu\u011funda yay\u0131lan dalgalar gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Geriye g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc de\u011fil,
birinin orada oldu\u011fu hissi kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f fark\u0131nda olmadan konu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201c\u2026Anne.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Emine\u2019nin eli \u00e7ok hafif durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cBu ev\u2026 hep bu kadar sessiz miydi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Kendi kula\u011f\u0131na bile tuhaf geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu evin nas\u0131l bir yer oldu\u011funu biliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama Emine bunu s\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir s\u00fcre sonra, sakin bir sesle konu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201c\u0130nsan az olunca, ev sessiz olur.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Cevap gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kimin eksik oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6zler masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu evde hep b\u00f6yleydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ger\u00e7e\u011fe yakla\u015f\u0131nca, biraz \u00f6nce dururdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O s\u0131rada Deniz arka odadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 toplam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Elinde telefonla sandalyeye oturdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cYine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsun.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Sesinde hafif bir b\u0131kk\u0131nl\u0131k vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama so\u011fuk de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir \u015feylerin fark\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201c\u2026Onu hat\u0131rl\u0131yor musun?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz hemen cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ekme\u011fi kopard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Parmaklar\u0131ndaki k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 silkeledi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cBiraz.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

O \u201cbiraz\u201d a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cNas\u0131l?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cY\u00fcz\u00fc net de\u011fil. Ama\u2026 uzundu galiba.
Bir de eve gelince hava de\u011fi\u015firdi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc kesti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir \u015fey k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cHava de\u011fi\u015firdi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cBilmiyorum nas\u0131l anlatay\u0131m. Korku de\u011fil\u2026
Sadece\u2026 evde ger\u00e7ekten biri var gibi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kendisi de tam anlatam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama o y\u00fczden daha ger\u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evde ger\u00e7ekten biri var gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu s\u00f6z Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7ine sessizce yerle\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ve o anda anlad\u0131\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu sessizlik, sadece sessizlik de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir \u015fey eksildikten sonra kalan sessizlikti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201c\u2026Hat\u0131rl\u0131yorsun asl\u0131nda.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz omuz silkti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201cHat\u0131rlamak de\u011fil.
Sadece\u2026 silinmedi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f k\u0131sa bir an durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hat\u0131ra de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir iz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kalm\u0131\u015f olan bir \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emine hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden taba\u011f\u0131 masaya koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Onun ellerine bakarken,
Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir \u015fey birikti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6zs\u00fcz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Neden kimse konu\u015fmuyor?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Neden o hi\u00e7 var olmam\u0131\u015f gibi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Neden hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131nca geriye sadece his kal\u0131yor?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Soru bo\u011faz\u0131na kadar geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama s\u00f6ylerse bir \u015fey k\u0131r\u0131lacak gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ka\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ses.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama fazla b\u00fcy\u00fck geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O sesten sonra, ev bir an durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0131\u015far\u0131daki arabalar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tencerenin sesi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Duvar\u0131n \u00f6tesindeki hayat\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hepsi uzakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n

\n
\"Curtain
The room stayed silent, but the curtain kept moving.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

K\u0131sa bir an i\u00e7in,
ba\u015fka bir sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annesi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Karde\u015fi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayn\u0131 yerde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pencereler kapal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u00fczg\u00e2r yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama sanki bir \u015feye dokunmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n

\n
\"Old
Evening light resting softly on the stone walls of Ankara.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n
\n

\u201c\u2026Biraz d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Kimseye bakmadan s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emine durdurmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deniz de konu\u015fmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu sessizlik so\u011fuk de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130kisi de bir \u015feyi biliyor gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama ad\u0131n\u0131 koymuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, Ankara\u2019n\u0131n ak\u015fam\u0131 yumu\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ta\u015f duvarlar soluk turuncuya d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kuru havaya g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonu kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzakta bir minareden y\u00fckselen ses,
\u015fehrin \u00fcst\u00fcnden yava\u015f\u00e7a ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Herkes evine d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f ise uzakla\u015fmak istedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nereye gitti\u011fi \u00f6nemli de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sadece uzakla\u015fmak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evde hissetti\u011fi \u015feyin ad\u0131 yoktu hen\u00fcz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sessizlik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eksiklik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hat\u0131rlanamayan bir y\u00fcz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Silinmemi\u015f bir iz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e i\u00e7indeki a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k artt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonra r\u00fczg\u00e2r geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sabahkiyle ayn\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0131rt\u0131na dokunur gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"Bar\u0131\u015f
The city was returning home, but he kept walking.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yava\u015f\u00e7a d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kimse yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama bu kez,
bunu kolayca ge\u00e7i\u015ftiremedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O r\u00fczg\u00e2ra benzeyen bir \u015fey,
evin i\u00e7inde de vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen,
ama var olan bir \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hep orada duran,
ad\u0131 olmayan bir \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n

\u201c\u2026Bitmedi mi h\u00e2l\u00e2.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6z a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ne demek istedi\u011fini bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ne bitmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ne kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131z bir ev,
bo\u015f bir ev de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f zaman vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kaybolmam\u0131\u015f,
sadece bast\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hat\u0131ralar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ve art\u0131k,
bunu fark etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u00fczg\u00e2r bir kez daha esti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu kez daha sessiz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama net.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sanki\u2014
hat\u0131rla diyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Babas\u0131 olmayan bir ev bazen daha sessiz de\u011fildir. Baz\u0131 anlar gitmez. Sadece g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeden kal\u0131r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":9198,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"swell_btn_cv_data":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[992,988],"tags":[1111,1021,1030,1065],"class_list":["post-8189","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-baris-noah","category-story","tag-aile-hatiralari","tag-ankara","tag-baris-ve-noah","tag-sessiz-hikaye"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8189","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8189"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8189\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10011,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8189\/revisions\/10011"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9198"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8189"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8189"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8189"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}