{"id":8199,"date":"2026-06-04T14:36:38","date_gmt":"2026-06-04T05:36:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/?p=8199"},"modified":"2026-06-04T16:18:13","modified_gmt":"2026-06-04T07:18:13","slug":"baris-noah-episode-3-evening-table","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/baris-noah-episode-3-evening-table\/","title":{"rendered":"B\u00f6l\u00fcm 3 \u2014 Ankara\u2019da Ak\u015fam Sofras\u0131 | Mustafa \u0130smi"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\"Old
The city stretched quietly beneath the fading afternoon light.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Ak\u015fam, sabahtan daha d\u00fcr\u00fcstt\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u015f\u0131k e\u011fik d\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, evin i\u00e7inde sakl\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015f \u015feyler yava\u015f yava\u015f ortaya \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 kendini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Duvardaki eski izler. Cilas\u0131 y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde yumu\u015fam\u0131\u015f ah\u015fab\u0131n sessiz par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131. Uzun zamand\u0131r kimsenin elini s\u00fcrmedi\u011fi raf k\u00f6\u015feleri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sabah g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen \u015feyler, ak\u015fam olunca sessizce yerini al\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsanlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde olanlar da belki biraz b\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O g\u00fcn Bar\u0131\u015f eve erken d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nedenini kendisi de tam s\u00f6yleyemezdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir \u00f6nceki ak\u015famdan beri i\u00e7inde kalan o tuhafl\u0131k, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da y\u00fcr\u00fcrken bile ge\u00e7memi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evden uzakla\u015f\u0131nca da de\u011fi\u015fmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ondan uzakla\u015fsa bile, o \u015fey kendi i\u00e7indeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsan bazen ka\u00e7maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da yan\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131n\u0131n yoklu\u011fu, art\u0131k b\u00f6yle bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n

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\"Turkish
Warm tea, quiet voices, and the silence between memories.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Mutfaktan kaynayan suyun sesi geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annesi Emine, her zamanki gibi sofray\u0131 sessizce haz\u0131rl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nce belli bardaktaki \u00e7ay, ak\u015fam \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kehribar gibi parl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyaz peynir. Siyah zeytin. Dilimlenmi\u015f domates. S\u0131ca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tam b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015f ekmek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hepsi tan\u0131d\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yine de dizili\u015flerinde garip bir d\u00fczen vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sanki bu evde s\u00f6ylenmeyen ne varsa, onun yerine sofra ayakta tutmu\u015ftu her \u015feyi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBug\u00fcn erken geldin.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bunu s\u00f6ylerken kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki sandalyeyi g\u00f6zleriyle i\u015faret etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f sessizce oturdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pencerenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda Ankara, ak\u015fam\u0131n rengine g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzakta g\u00f6r\u00fcnen caminin kubbesiyle ince minaresi, yumu\u015fak \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ezan \u00f6ncesinin sessizli\u011fi \u015fehrin \u00fcst\u00fcne ince bir \u00f6rt\u00fc gibi yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcnd\u00fcz vakti Ankara her \u015feyi a\u00e7\u0131klayabilecekmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama ak\u015fam olunca, a\u00e7\u0131klamas\u0131 olmayan \u015feyleri de oldu\u011fu gibi kabul eden bir \u015fehre d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir s\u00fcre sadece ekme\u011fin kopar\u0131lma sesi duyuldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f o sessizlikte annesinin ellerine bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Taba\u011f\u0131 yakla\u015ft\u0131ran parmaklar\u0131na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Barda\u011f\u0131 tutu\u015funa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ekme\u011fi uzat\u0131rkenki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck harekete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bo\u015fa giden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her \u015fey al\u0131\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yerli yerinde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzun zaman i\u00e7inde edinilmi\u015f sessiz bir g\u00fc\u00e7 vard\u0131 o ellerde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7ocuklu\u011fundan beri bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ellerdi bunlar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama bug\u00fcn ba\u015fka g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcler ona.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sanki bir \u015feyi koruyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya da i\u00e7eride tutuyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hangisi oldu\u011funu kestiremedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama ellerinin her k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck hareketinde, sanki g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen bir s\u0131n\u0131r vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Buradan sonras\u0131 yok, der gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cAnne.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Emine ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBabam\u0131 sorabilir miyim?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

O anda pencerenin kenar\u0131ndaki ince perde hafif\u00e7e k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u00e7\u0131k pencereden ak\u015fam\u0131n kuru r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131 ince bir \u00e7izgi gibi i\u00e7eri girdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sert de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama bo\u015f da de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emine hemen cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bunun yerine \u00e7ay\u0131ndan bir yudum ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0131cak olmas\u0131 gerekiyordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde hi\u00e7bir \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBirden ne oldu?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBirden de\u011fil. San\u0131r\u0131m… uzun zamand\u0131r akl\u0131mdayd\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6yledi\u011fi anda sesi kendi kula\u011f\u0131na bekledi\u011finden daha gen\u00e7 geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annesini su\u00e7lamak istemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcstelemek de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sadece, i\u00e7inde hep a\u00e7\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015f o bo\u015flu\u011fun bir ad\u0131 olsun istiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emine g\u00f6zlerini pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc yava\u015f yava\u015f maviye d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBaban\u0131 and\u0131r\u0131yorsun.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bu bir cevap gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama cevap de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f nefesini tuttu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131yla ilgili ne zaman bir \u015fey sorsa, bu evde kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na hep sessizlik \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu y\u00fczden tek bir c\u00fcmle bile fazlas\u0131yla a\u011f\u0131r geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNerem?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cSusup d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmen.
Kendin de tam anlamadan, bir \u015feyi kolay kolay b\u0131rakamaman.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Emine bunu s\u00f6ylerken belli belirsiz g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yumu\u015fak bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama biraz uzakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sanki o anda Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019a de\u011fil de, haf\u0131zas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7indeki birine d\u00f6n\u00fckt\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f annesinin y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakarken, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fcn derininden bir ses y\u00fckselir gibi oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nereden geldi\u011fini bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bunu ona az \u00f6nce kimse s\u00f6ylememi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama o isim sanki hep oradayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ba\u015ftan beri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilmedi\u011fi halde, sonsuza kadar bilmeden kalamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir ses gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u2026Mustafa.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Kendi sesi ona ait de\u011filmi\u015f gibi geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emine\u2019nin parmaklar\u0131 bir anda durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sofradaki hava sessizce de\u011fi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan, uzaktan gelen ezan duyulmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ak\u015famla duan\u0131n birbirine de\u011fdi\u011fi saatlerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ankara\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6\u011f\u00fc geni\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama insan\u0131n i\u00e7i o saatlerde biraz daha daral\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u00e7eride tutulan \u015feylerin, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir seste bile ta\u015fmaya yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBabam\u0131n ad\u0131… Mustafa\u2019yd\u0131, de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Emine yine hemen cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O sessizli\u011fin uzunlu\u011fu, Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019a s\u00f6ylenecek her \u015feyden daha ger\u00e7ek geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nk\u00e2r etmeyen bir sessizlikti bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilmiyormu\u015f gibi davranmayan bir sessizlik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu evde h\u00e2l\u00e2 dile gelmemi\u015f \u015feyler oldu\u011funu kabul eden bir sessizlik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonra, \u00e7ok hafif bir sesle konu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u2026Evet.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Sadece o kadar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama yetti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O k\u0131sa kelimeyle birlikte, babas\u0131 ilk kez sadece bir yokluk olmaktan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bo\u015f b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir yerin i\u00e7inde, ilk \u00e7izgi belirmi\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mustafa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bazen bir insan\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 bilmek, onu daha da uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilmedi\u011fin biri, bir anda ger\u00e7ek olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ger\u00e7ek olunca da dokunulmaz hale gelir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama ayn\u0131 anda, daha az yalan gibi gelir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hayalin i\u00e7indeki bir baba de\u011fil art\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir zamanlar ger\u00e7ekten var olmu\u015f bir insan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNas\u0131l biriydi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f sorarken sesindeki hafif titremeyi kendisi de duydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emine ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallamad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama anlatmaya da ba\u015flamad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cKolay anlat\u0131lacak biri de\u011fildi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Belirsiz bir cevapt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 tam da oradan geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kolay anlat\u0131lacak biri de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu, anlatacak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok demek de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tam tersine, bir c\u00fcmleye s\u0131\u011fmayacak kadar \u00e7ok \u015fey oldu\u011fu anlam\u0131na geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zlerini \u00f6n\u00fcndeki taba\u011fa indirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tabaktaki beyaz peynir, ak\u015fam \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n son k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla hafif\u00e7e renk de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Belki babas\u0131 sadece gidip kaybolan biri de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Belki annesi de konu\u015fmak istemedi\u011fi i\u00e7in de\u011fil, konu\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in susuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu bir cevap de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama ikinci b\u00f6l\u00fcmdeki o havas\u0131 \u00e7ekilmi\u015f evden daha a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Daha derindi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u2026Ben onun hakk\u0131nda neredeyse hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Emine bu s\u00f6ze de hemen kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sadece masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki iki elini usulca \u00fcst \u00fcste koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir hareketti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama bir \u015feyi tutuyormu\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131n diye.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6ylemek istemedi\u011finden de\u011fil,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylenirse gerisinin de gelece\u011fini bildi\u011finden.<\/p>\n\n\n

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\"Quiet
The evening air moved softly through the empty room.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

D\u0131\u015far\u0131da g\u00fcne\u015f tamamen \u00e7ekilmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eehrin \u00fcst\u00fcne gece inmeye ba\u015fl\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ezan\u0131n son yank\u0131s\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 havada kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Perde bir kez daha hafif\u00e7e salland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7ay\u0131n y\u00fczeyi ince bir titreyi\u015fle oynad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f ona bakarken i\u00e7inden sessizce ge\u00e7irdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mustafa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131 bilmek hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi a\u00e7\u0131klam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama art\u0131k bilmedi\u011fi zamana d\u00f6nmesi de m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu evin i\u00e7inde h\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u00f6ze d\u00f6k\u00fclmemi\u015f bir ge\u00e7mi\u015f vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ve Bar\u0131\u015f, ilk kez \u015funu anlad\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O ge\u00e7mi\u015f kapal\u0131 bir odada saklanm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annesinin sessizli\u011finde ya\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O gece Bar\u0131\u015f odas\u0131na d\u00f6nmeden \u00f6nce bir kez daha sofraya bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Emine masay\u0131 topluyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0131rt\u0131 her zamanki gibi sakindi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sessizdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama \u015fimdi, o sessizli\u011fin i\u00e7inde bir isim kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u00fczg\u00e2r esmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yine de biliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0131rada gelecek olan \u015fey, \u00e7oktan ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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