{"id":8222,"date":"2026-05-29T01:53:20","date_gmt":"2026-05-28T16:53:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/?p=8222"},"modified":"2026-06-04T16:20:16","modified_gmt":"2026-06-04T07:20:16","slug":"baris-noah-episode-4-mothers-silence","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/baris-noah-episode-4-mothers-silence\/","title":{"rendered":"B\u00f6l\u00fcm 4\u3000Annenin Sessizli\u011fi | Ankara gecesinde kalan, s\u00f6ylenemeyen hat\u0131ra"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-atakule-night-1024x576.webp\" alt=\"Emine standing by a window at night with Atakule in the distance\" class=\"wp-image-9255\" srcset=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-atakule-night-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-atakule-night-400x225.webp 400w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-atakule-night-768x432.webp 768w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-atakule-night-1536x864.webp 1536w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-atakule-night.webp 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">The city remained distant, even through the glass.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Gece mutfa\u011f\u0131nda, g\u00fcnd\u00fczdekinden daha derin bir sessizlik vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yemekten sonra toplanm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 gereken o yerde, h\u00e2l\u00e2 biraz s\u0131cakl\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Y\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f tabaklar ters \u00e7evrilmi\u015fti. Damlayan su a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pencerenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda Ankara gecesi uzan\u0131yordu; uzaktaki \u0131\u015f\u0131klar kuru havan\u0131n i\u00e7inde hafif\u00e7e titriyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00fcnd\u00fcz Ankara derli toplu g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yollar da, insanlar\u0131n ak\u0131\u015f\u0131 da, binalar\u0131n \u00e7izgileri de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama gece olunca, o d\u00fczg\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn alt\u0131na bast\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u015feyler bile usulca su y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yormu\u015f gibi geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f, koridorun ucundan bu manzaraya bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annesinin s\u0131rt\u0131 beyaz lavabonun \u00f6n\u00fcndeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Omuzlar\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc. Hareketleri sakindi. Gereksiz hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tabak silerken de, bezi katlarken de, y\u0131llard\u0131r ayn\u0131 \u015feyi yapan birinin durulu\u011fu vard\u0131 ellerinde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O s\u0131rt\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, nedense seslenmek zorla\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131zg\u0131n de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130tmiyordu da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yine de yakla\u015fmaya kalk\u0131nca, arada g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen ince bir tabaka varm\u0131\u015f gibi oluyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Girilmez bir yer de\u011fildi oras\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece, girildi\u011fi anda bir \u015feyin \u015fekli de\u011fi\u015fecekmi\u015f gibi duran ince bir s\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f k\u0131sa bir teredd\u00fctten sonra mutfa\u011fa girdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yaln\u0131zca muslu\u011fun kapanma sesi k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir yank\u0131 gibi kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cDaha uyumad\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Geceye kar\u0131\u015fan bir sesti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cYok.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bunu s\u00f6yleyip pencerenin yan\u0131na ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Aral\u0131k kalan pencereden gece serinli\u011fi ince bir \u00e7izgi gibi i\u00e7eri s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00fcnd\u00fcz r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131ndan farkl\u0131yd\u0131 bu. \u0130tmiyordu. Sadece sessizce tenine de\u011fip ge\u00e7iyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan ara s\u0131ra uzak araba sesleri geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O seslerin aras\u0131ndaki sessizlik, bu evin i\u00e7ini daha da belirginle\u015ftiriyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine, \u0131slak ellerini bezle kurularken bir an Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019a bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cUyuyam\u0131yor musun?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u2026Biraz.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Asl\u0131nda \u00f6yle de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Uyuyamamak de\u011fildi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Uyursa, yine hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmedi\u011fi bir sabaha d\u00f6necekmi\u015f gibi geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc b\u00f6l\u00fcmde \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi o isim\u2014Mustafa\u2014akl\u0131n\u0131n bir yerinde tak\u0131l\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6zlerini kapatsa da sesi gitmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O ad\u0131 bilmeden \u00f6nceki haline art\u0131k d\u00f6nemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama yaln\u0131zca ad\u0131 bilmek de hi\u00e7bir \u015feye yetmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k, uykudan daha derin bir yerde duruyordu i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine tek kelime etmeden raftaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck cam \u015fi\u015feyi eski yerine koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra g\u00f6zlerini pencerenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yandan y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, Bar\u0131\u015f tuhaf bir \u015fey fark etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annesi susuyordu ama sanki bir \u015fey saklam\u0131yormu\u015f gibi de g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ayn\u0131 anda, en \u00f6nemli olan\u0131 asla vermeyecek biri gibi de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O \u00e7eli\u015fki tak\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131 i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Susuyor ama kapanm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yak\u0131nd\u0131 ama en derin yere dokunmas\u0131na izin vermiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu haliyle, evin havas\u0131na benziyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cAnne.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f yava\u015f\u00e7a konu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBabam hakk\u0131nda konu\u015fmaman\u2026 hat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan de\u011fil, de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine\u2019nin parmaklar\u0131 durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ok k\u0131sa s\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama yetti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f devam etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cUnuttuysan s\u00f6yleyebilirsin. \u0130stemiyorsan da s\u00f6yleyebilirsin. Ama seninki \u00f6yle de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Konu\u015furken sesinin biraz sertle\u015fti\u011fini fark etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Onu su\u00e7lamak istemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece, hep ayn\u0131 yerde d\u00f6n\u00fcp durmaktan yorulmu\u015ftu biraz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ad\u0131 bilip de geriye kalan her \u015feyin yine sessizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fclmesi a\u011f\u0131r geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine bir s\u00fcre sustu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pencerenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndaki karanl\u0131k, mutfa\u011f\u0131n beyaz duvar\u0131na silik\u00e7e vuruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonunda sessiz bir sesle konu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBaz\u0131 \u015feyler vard\u0131r\u2026 s\u00f6ze d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcnce \u015fekli de\u011fi\u015fir.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Sanki \u00e7ok uzak bir yerden gelmi\u015f gibiydi o s\u00f6z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u015eekli de\u011fi\u015fir?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cHat\u0131ralar bazen b\u00f6yledir. A\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda, sand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015fka bir \u015feye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine bunu s\u00f6ylerken parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 lavabonun kenar\u0131na hafif\u00e7e koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir su damlas\u0131 beyaz metalin \u00fcst\u00fcnde ince bir \u00e7izgi halinde kayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bak\u0131nca, belki haf\u0131za da \u00f6yledir diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc Bar\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tutmak istedi\u011fin bi\u00e7imde kalmaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dokundu\u011fun anda, azar azar ba\u015fka bir \u015feye d\u00f6ner.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cO y\u00fczden mi susuyorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine bu soruya hemen ba\u015f\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu da ba\u015fka bir \u00e7eli\u015fkiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Susman\u0131n sebebini anlat\u0131yor, ama onu da sonuna kadar a\u00e7m\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u2026Korumak istedi\u011fim \u015feyler var.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Orada durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBir de k\u0131rmak istemediklerim.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f onun yandan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annesi a\u011flam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sesi de titremiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama o sessizli\u011fin alt\u0131nda, y\u0131llard\u0131r bast\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu yaln\u0131zca h\u00fcz\u00fcn de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yaln\u0131zca \u00f6fke de de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tek bir ad\u0131n yetmeyece\u011fi duygular, uzun zaman boyunca dibe \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birden \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundan bir par\u00e7a ge\u00e7ti i\u00e7inden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gece, uyumadan \u00f6nce, koridorun \u00f6te yan\u0131ndan bir konu\u015fma sesi geliyor gibiydi sanki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kelimeleri hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yaln\u0131zca al\u00e7ak bir ses. Ard\u0131ndan annenin daha sessiz cevab\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve o sesin kayboldu\u011fu geceden sonra, evin havas\u0131 biraz de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama bunun ger\u00e7ekten bir an\u0131 m\u0131, yoksa sonradan kurulmu\u015f bir \u015fey mi oldu\u011funu bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu evde b\u00f6yle \u015feyler \u00e7ok fazlayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ger\u00e7ekten olmu\u015f ama hat\u0131rlanamayan \u015feyler mi bunlard\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yoksa hat\u0131rlanamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in kurulan \u015feyler mi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Aradaki \u00e7izgi hep bulan\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cAnne\u2026 babama h\u00e2l\u00e2 k\u0131zg\u0131n m\u0131s\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Soru, kendi onu \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtacak kadar sakin \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine g\u00f6zlerini biraz indirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u00d6fke olsayd\u0131, belki daha kolay olurdu.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f nefesini tuttu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu, a\u00e7\u0131k bir cevap de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama tam da o belirsizlik, ger\u00e7e\u011fe daha yak\u0131nm\u0131\u015f gibi geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00d6fkeyle a\u00e7\u0131klanamayacak bir \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k da de\u011fil. Vazge\u00e7i\u015f de de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annesinin sessizli\u011finde kalan \u015fey oydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve o kal\u0131\u015f bi\u00e7imi, Mustafa ad\u0131n\u0131 daha da uzak, daha da a\u011f\u0131r hale getiriyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f pencerenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gece Ankara\u2019s\u0131, g\u00fcnd\u00fczk\u00fcnden daha uzak geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u015f\u0131klar vard\u0131, ama hi\u00e7bir yere el uzanm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>B\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fehir, i\u00e7inde bir \u015fey ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131p susuyormu\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu \u015fehre, dile gelmeyen \u015feyler fazla yak\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Belki de bu y\u00fczden, onlar\u0131n evi de bunca zaman onun i\u00e7inde kaybolup gidebilmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBen hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u00f6z a\u011fz\u0131ndan kendili\u011finden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBilmeden\u2026 kendi kendime d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp duruyorum sadece.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-kitchen-water-drop-1024x576.webp\" alt=\"Water flowing down a kitchen sink in a quiet Ankara apartment\" class=\"wp-image-9264\" srcset=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-kitchen-water-drop-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-kitchen-water-drop-400x225.webp 400w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-kitchen-water-drop-768x432.webp 768w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-kitchen-water-drop-1536x864.webp 1536w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-kitchen-water-drop.webp 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Some memories change shape the moment they are touched.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Emine bunu ink\u00e2r etmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Onun yerine mutfa\u011f\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biraz k\u0131st\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Az \u00f6nce bembeyaz g\u00f6r\u00fcnen yerde yumu\u015fak g\u00f6lgeler olu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBilmemekle, sana s\u00f6ylenmemi\u015f olmas\u0131 ayn\u0131 \u015fey de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu s\u00f6zle Bar\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine art\u0131k ona bakm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zleri d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki karanl\u0131kta, \u00f6ylece duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bilmemek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sana s\u00f6ylenmemi\u015f olmas\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Benzer gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Belki de bo\u015flu\u011fun i\u00e7inde de\u011fildi o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birilerinin bilerek bo\u015f b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yerde duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce sessizce oturdu i\u00e7ine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Su\u00e7lamak istemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama art\u0131k yaln\u0131zca bekleyerek kalamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da anlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ger\u00e7ekten ona s\u00f6ylenmemi\u015fse, bir g\u00fcn gidip kendisinin dokunmas\u0131 gerekecekti buna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annesinin sessizli\u011fini a\u015farak de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O sessizli\u011fin d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan, ba\u015fka bir giri\u015f bulup.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce h\u00e2l\u00e2 bulan\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama gece mutfa\u011f\u0131nda ilk kez \u015fekil almaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pencereden giren gece r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131, perdenin ucunu hafif\u00e7e oynatt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00fcnd\u00fcz r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131 gibi s\u0131rt\u0131ndan itmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama durmu\u015f olan bir \u015feye hafif\u00e7e de\u011fip, i\u00e7inde h\u00e2l\u00e2 hareket pay\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 haber veriyor gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine son olarak, al\u00e7ak sesle konu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBelki bir g\u00fcn anlatabilirim. Ama\u2026 \u015fimdilik bunu benim s\u00f6zlerime \u00e7evirme.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>O \u201cbenim s\u00f6zlerime \u00e7evirme\u201d deyi\u015fi kald\u0131 Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7inde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131yla ilgiliydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama ayn\u0131 zamanda annesinin s\u00f6zleriydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe aitti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama sanki h\u00e2l\u00e2 s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu bir reddedi\u015f de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama izin de de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dokunulmamas\u0131 gereken bir \u015fey de\u011fildi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece, oldu\u011fu haliyle hen\u00fcz dokunulabilecek bir \u015fey de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yaln\u0131zca ilk kez, annesinin sessizli\u011finin bo\u015f olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bazen bir \u015feyi de\u011fi\u015ftirmeden tutman\u0131n yolu da olabilece\u011fini biraz anlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-ankara-kitchen-distance-1024x576.webp\" alt=\"Bar\u0131\u015f watching Emine from a dark hallway in an Ankara apartment\" class=\"wp-image-9260\" srcset=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-ankara-kitchen-distance-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-ankara-kitchen-distance-400x225.webp 400w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-ankara-kitchen-distance-768x432.webp 768w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-ankara-kitchen-distance-1536x864.webp 1536w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-ankara-kitchen-distance.webp 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Some silences stay between people, even in the same room.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Mutfaktan \u00e7\u0131kmadan \u00f6nce bir kez d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine h\u00e2l\u00e2 pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gece cam\u0131nda, d\u0131\u015far\u0131n\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla i\u00e7erideki bedeni \u00fcst \u00fcste d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Oradayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama uzakt\u0131 da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f onun s\u0131rt\u0131na bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Annesi hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bazen konu\u015fmamak da ba\u015fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na bir cevapt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve o cevap,<br>bir dahaki sefer Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n bir \u015feye el uzatmas\u0131na,<br>sessizce izin veriyor gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sessiz bir Ankara gecesinde Bar\u0131\u015f, sessizli\u011fin bazen yaln\u0131zca bir \u015feyi saklamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onu korudu\u011funu da fark etmeye ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":9251,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"swell_btn_cv_data":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[992,988],"tags":[1055,1054,1377,1030],"class_list":["post-8222","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-baris-noah","category-story","tag-aile-anilari","tag-ankara-gecesi","tag-annenin-sessizligi","tag-baris-ve-noah"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8222","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8222"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8222\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10013,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8222\/revisions\/10013"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9251"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8222"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8222"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8222"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}