{"id":8273,"date":"2026-06-04T14:53:08","date_gmt":"2026-06-04T05:53:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/?p=8273"},"modified":"2026-06-04T16:26:08","modified_gmt":"2026-06-04T07:26:08","slug":"baris-noah-episode-9-fathers-shoes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/baris-noah-episode-9-fathers-shoes\/","title":{"rendered":"B\u00f6l\u00fcm9\u3000Baban\u0131n Ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131 | Ankara\u2019daki evde kalan son iz"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ankara-dry-midday-street-baris-noah-episode-9-1024x576.webp\" alt=\"Quiet residential street in Ankara under dry midday light\" class=\"wp-image-9382\" srcset=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ankara-dry-midday-street-baris-noah-episode-9-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ankara-dry-midday-street-baris-noah-episode-9-400x225.webp 400w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ankara-dry-midday-street-baris-noah-episode-9-768x432.webp 768w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ankara-dry-midday-street-baris-noah-episode-9-1536x864.webp 1536w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/ankara-dry-midday-street-baris-noah-episode-9.webp 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">The city kept moving, even while time inside the house stood still.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Ayakkab\u0131larda, bir insan\u0131n y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc zaman kal\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00d6\u011fleyi biraz ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Evin i\u00e7i, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa g\u00f6re daha sessizdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pencereden giren \u0131\u015f\u0131k beyazd\u0131; zeminde d\u00f6rt k\u00f6\u015fe bir \u015fekil b\u0131rak\u0131yordu. Ankara\u2019n\u0131n kuru havas\u0131, \u00f6\u011flene do\u011fru daha da belirginle\u015firdi. Uzak caddeden ge\u00e7en arabalar\u0131n sesi. Bir yerlerde kapanan bir pencerenin sesi. Alt kattan hafif\u00e7e y\u00fckselen sabun kokusu. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da hayat olmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fi gibi ak\u0131yordu. Ama bu evin i\u00e7inde zaman sanki biraz geriden geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f, koridorun sonundaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck dolab\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde \u00e7\u00f6melmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sekizinci b\u00f6l\u00fcmde hissetti\u011fi o tuhaf r\u00fczg\u00e2r art\u0131k yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama gitmi\u015f olmas\u0131, her \u015feyin bitti\u011fi anlam\u0131na gelmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tam tersine, g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen bir \u015feye dokunduktan sonra, insan bu kez g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde olanla emin olmak istiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131 neye bakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nereye gitmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Haritada bile yazmayan o yer neresiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Cevaplara h\u00e2l\u00e2 ula\u015fam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu y\u00fczden en az\u0131ndan, elinin de\u011febilece\u011fi bir \u015fey ar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dolab\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131nca, i\u00e7erden hafif serin bir hava \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Eski kuma\u015f kokusu, uzun s\u00fcre kapal\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015f a\u011fac\u0131n kokusuna kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u0130\u00e7eride temizlik malzemeleri, art\u0131k kullan\u0131lmayan birka\u00e7 \u015fi\u015fe, mevsimi ge\u00e7mi\u015f ceketler vard\u0131. Arkada, daha a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da, ayakkab\u0131 kutusuna benzeyen d\u00fcz bir kutu g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f onu kendine do\u011fru \u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kutunun \u00fcst\u00fcnde ince bir toz tabakas\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Unutulmu\u015f bir \u015feyin tozu de\u011fildi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Daha sessiz bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kimsenin ger\u00e7ekten unutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, ama kimsenin bilin\u00e7li olarak elini s\u00fcrmedi\u011fi \u015feylerin \u00fcst\u00fcnde biriken tozdu bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kapa\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u00e7inde bir \u00e7ift deri ayakkab\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-fathers-old-shoes-1024x576.webp\" alt=\"Hands holding worn brown leather shoes in a quiet Ankara apartment\" class=\"wp-image-9386\" srcset=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-fathers-old-shoes-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-fathers-old-shoes-400x225.webp 400w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-fathers-old-shoes-768x432.webp 768w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-fathers-old-shoes-1536x864.webp 1536w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-fathers-old-shoes.webp 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Some things remain long after a person disappears.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Siyaha yak\u0131n koyu kahverengi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 neredeyse tamamen gitmi\u015fti. Burunlar\u0131nda ince \u00e7izikler vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama y\u0131pran\u0131p bitmemi\u015flerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>At\u0131lmas\u0131 gereken kadar eski de\u011fillerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sanki h\u00e2l\u00e2 birini bekleyen bir eskilikleri vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f bir s\u00fcre ayakkab\u0131lara bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>B\u00fcy\u00fcklerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>En az\u0131ndan kendi aya\u011f\u0131ndan biraz daha uzundular.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u011fc\u0131klar\u0131 h\u00e2l\u00e2 d\u00fczg\u00fcnce ge\u00e7irilmi\u015fti. Sadece bir ucunun ucu hafif\u00e7e yana k\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu, geride kalm\u0131\u015f bir al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131n\u0131n ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce akl\u0131na gelir gelmez, i\u00e7inde bir \u015fey sessizce \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eimdiye kadar sadece bir isimdi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir zarf\u0131n par\u00e7as\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir harita \u00e7izgisiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eimdi ise g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcndeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ayak bi\u00e7iminde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f ayakkab\u0131lardan birini eline ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Deri, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden daha sertti. Ama fazla so\u011fuk de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 avucunda kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u0131radan bir e\u015fyan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi de\u011fildi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Daha ba\u015fka bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sanki birinin yoklu\u011fu kat\u0131la\u015f\u0131p \u015fekil alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O s\u0131rada arkas\u0131ndan bir ayak sesi geldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine, koridorun ortas\u0131nda duruyordu. Kolunda y\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar vard\u0131. Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden ona bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f, ayakkab\u0131 elindeyken bir s\u00fcre k\u0131m\u0131ldayamad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Saklamak i\u00e7in ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu, yakalanm\u0131\u015f olmak gibi de\u011fildi yaln\u0131zca.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Daha \u00e7ok, bu an\u0131n bir yerlerde hep bulunaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyor olmas\u0131 gibi bir sessizlik vard\u0131 ortada.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cOnu da \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131n demek.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine\u2019nin sesi su\u00e7lay\u0131c\u0131 de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece biraz uzakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Biraz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBabam\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f sorunca Emine hemen cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ayakkab\u0131n\u0131n burun k\u0131sm\u0131ndaki a\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f yere indi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c\u2026Evet.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece bu kadar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama o k\u0131sa cevap, \u015fimdiye kadar buldu\u011fu b\u00fct\u00fcn par\u00e7alardan daha ger\u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f ayakkab\u0131ya bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cDemek giyiyordu.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00c7ok s\u0131radan bir c\u00fcmleydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131 bu ayakkab\u0131larla y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir yere gitmeden \u00f6nce de, bir yere varmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmadan \u00f6nce de, s\u0131radan g\u00fcnlerin i\u00e7inde y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu kadar basit bir ger\u00e7ek, \u015fimdi gelip i\u00e7ine oturdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine yava\u015f\u00e7a yakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra dolab\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki duvara elini koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cO ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131 uzun zaman giydi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cHer yere giderken mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u00d6yle biri de\u011fildi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-hallway-silence-1024x576.webp\" alt=\"Middle-aged woman standing quietly in an apartment hallway holding laundry\" class=\"wp-image-9394\" srcset=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-hallway-silence-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-hallway-silence-400x225.webp 400w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-hallway-silence-768x432.webp 768w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-hallway-silence-1536x864.webp 1536w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-emine-hallway-silence.webp 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Some feelings remain in a house long after words disappear.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cNe demek o?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine art\u0131k ayakkab\u0131lara bakm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 daha uzakta bir yerdeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cO, \u015feyleri yerine g\u00f6re ay\u0131ran biri de\u011fildi. Sevdi\u011fi bir \u015feyi, kullan\u0131lamaz h\u00e2le gelene kadar kullan\u0131rd\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu s\u00f6zlerle ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc biraz de\u011fi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece babas\u0131ndan kalm\u0131\u015f bir e\u015fya de\u011fildi art\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Se\u00e7ilmi\u015f bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tekrar tekrar giyilmi\u015f, aya\u011fa al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Adam\u0131n kendisinden bir par\u00e7a h\u00e2l\u00e2 derinin i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 ayakkab\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine soktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Taban\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131 hafif\u00e7e \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Aya\u011f\u0131n ayn\u0131 yere tekrar tekrar basmas\u0131yla olu\u015fmu\u015f sessiz bir \u00e7ukurluktu bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck iz, dayan\u0131lmaz derecede ger\u00e7ekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cBunlarla\u2026 nereye gidiyordu acaba?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine yine cevap vermedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama bu kez sessizlik biraz farkl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Konu\u015famayan birinin sessizli\u011fi de\u011fildi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Cevab\u0131n tek olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilen birinin sessizli\u011fiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u0130\u015fe giderken de giyerdi. Ba\u015fka g\u00fcnlerde de.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cNe i\u015f yap\u0131yordu?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Soru, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden daha sert \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine\u2019nin parmaklar\u0131 duvar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde hafif\u00e7e k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Cevap vermek istemedi\u011finden de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece, nereden ba\u015flamas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini bilmeyen birinin sessizli\u011fi vard\u0131 onda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u015eimdilik\u2026 sen daha \u00f6ncesine bak\u0131yorsun.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7att\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u00d6ncesine mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u015eu an elinde kalanlardan giriyorsun. \u0130sim, k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t, harita, ayakkab\u0131\u2026 Bu da yeter.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131n\u0131n nas\u0131l bir i\u015f yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmek istiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama ondan \u00f6nce, belki de daha basit bir \u015feyi bilmesi gerekiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00fcnyada nas\u0131l var oldu\u011funu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine\u2019nin s\u00f6ylemek istedi\u011fi buydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bunu biraz ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ayakkab\u0131y\u0131 tutan eli hafif\u00e7e s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tam o s\u0131rada, zihninde bulan\u0131k bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc y\u00fckseldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gece vakti giri\u015f kap\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck h\u00e2li.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelen birinin oturup ayakkab\u0131 ba\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 gev\u015fetmesi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kendisi de biraz \u00f6teden bunu seyrediyor gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Derinin hafif\u00e7e s\u00fcrt\u00fcnme sesi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri giren so\u011fuk hava.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemek isteyip de s\u00f6ylemeyen kendisi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bunun ger\u00e7ekten bir an\u0131 olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama ayakkab\u0131 elindeyken, yaln\u0131zca o sahne tuhaf bi\u00e7imde yak\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201c\u2026Hat\u0131rl\u0131yor olabilirim.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>S\u00f6zler kendili\u011finden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama bunu da ink\u00e2r etmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f ayakkab\u0131y\u0131 kutuya geri koyacakken, g\u00f6z\u00fc tabana tak\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birinde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Topra\u011fa benzeyen, biraz farkl\u0131 bir renk vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Eski bir kir de olabilirdi. Deride kalm\u0131\u015f bir iz de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama evin i\u00e7indeki tozun rengi de\u011fildi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kuru bir renkti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Soluk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Toprak rengi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ankara topra\u011f\u0131 da olabilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u015fka bir yer de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bilmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama bilmeyi\u015fi, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7inde sessizce bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Babas\u0131 bu ayakkab\u0131larla nerelerde y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Neler g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Neler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hangi karar\u0131 verememi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Cevap yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama o anda, Bar\u0131\u015f i\u00e7in o cevaps\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kendisi ac\u0131t\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cAnne.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Emine ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cAtmad\u0131n bunlar\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir s\u00fcre sessiz kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra hafif\u00e7e nefes verdi. Dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda belli belirsiz bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>\u201cAtmak i\u00e7in bir neden bulamad\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu, ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n dili de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Unutamad\u0131m da de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Daha sessiz bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hayat\u0131n dibinde kal\u0131p da ad\u0131 hi\u00e7 konmadan duran \u015feyler gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bar\u0131\u015f ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131 kutuya geri koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-shoebox-fathers-shoes-1024x576.webp\" alt=\"POV view of worn leather shoes inside an old shoebox\" class=\"wp-image-9390\" srcset=\"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-shoebox-fathers-shoes-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-shoebox-fathers-shoes-400x225.webp 400w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-shoebox-fathers-shoes-768x432.webp 768w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-shoebox-fathers-shoes-1536x864.webp 1536w, https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/05\/baris-noah-shoebox-fathers-shoes.webp 1600w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Some memories wait quietly until someone opens them.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Kapa\u011f\u0131 kapatt\u0131ktan sonra bile, az \u00f6nce hissetti\u011fi a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k ellerinden gitmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Belki de babas\u0131 o kadar uzak biri de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>En az\u0131ndan bir isim kadar uzak de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir harita kadar da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir insan\u0131n y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc izi kimse g\u00f6remez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama ayakkab\u0131lar bilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dolab\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kapatmadan \u00f6nce Bar\u0131\u015f bir kez daha d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kutu yine karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama art\u0131k orada ne oldu\u011funu biliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sadece bu bile, evin i\u00e7indeki karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 biraz de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve ayn\u0131 anda, bilmedi\u011fi \u015feylerin h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00e7ok daha fazla oldu\u011funu da ilk kez bu kadar a\u00e7\u0131k g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u0130nsanlar gider, ama baz\u0131 \u015feyler kal\u0131r. Bar\u0131\u015f, Ankara\u2019daki sessiz evde babas\u0131ndan geriye kalan eski ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131 bulur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":9398,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"swell_btn_cv_data":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[992,988],"tags":[1131,1030,1132,1133,1065],"class_list":["post-8273","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-baris-noah","category-story","tag-baba-hatirasi","tag-baris-ve-noah","tag-bolum-9","tag-eski-ayakkabilar","tag-sessiz-hikaye"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8273","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8273"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8273\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10018,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8273\/revisions\/10018"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9398"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8273"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8273"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8273"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}