{"id":8390,"date":"2026-06-30T09:00:00","date_gmt":"2026-06-30T00:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/?p=8390"},"modified":"2026-06-04T16:39:48","modified_gmt":"2026-06-04T07:39:48","slug":"baris-noah-episode-17-house-of-memories","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/baris-noah-episode-17-house-of-memories\/","title":{"rendered":"17B\u00f6l\u00fcm \u2014 Ankara\u2019daki Evin \u00d6n\u00fcnde Geriye Bakmak | Babas\u0131n\u0131n Hat\u0131ras\u0131 ve Bir K\u00f6pe\u011fin G\u00f6lgesinin Kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 Sabah"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\"Old
Even abandoned signs seem to remember something here.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Ev, bazen tam ondan uzakla\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n anda en yak\u0131n h\u00e2line gelir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sabah \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7oktan y\u00fckselmi\u015fti. Ama evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki sokak, g\u00fcn\u00fcn ba\u015flay\u0131p ba\u015flamad\u0131\u011f\u0131na h\u00e2l\u00e2 karar verememi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Ankara\u2019n\u0131n kuru havas\u0131 hafifti. Beyaz duvarlara vuran \u0131\u015f\u0131k sessizce geri d\u00f6n\u00fcyordu. Uzakta arabalar ge\u00e7iyor, k\u00f6\u015fedeki d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n kepenginin yar\u0131ya kadar a\u00e7\u0131lma sesi duyuluyordu. Pi\u015fen ekme\u011fin kokusu r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n ucuna kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ama bu evin \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011finde o koku bile biraz inceliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f kap\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda durmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Az \u00f6nce Ulus\u2019un eski havas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7indeydi. Ama fark\u0131na varmadan ayaklar\u0131 onu bu soka\u011fa geri getirmi\u015fti. \u0130stasyona do\u011fru gitmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ama son anda, yan\u0131nda ne ta\u015f\u0131yarak \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek istemi\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Ka\u00e7ar gibi giderse, o ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f bi\u00e7imi de yolculu\u011fun i\u00e7inde kalacakt\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden bir kez olsun bu eve d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bakmak istedi. Uzakla\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fey sadece bir bina m\u0131yd\u0131, yoksa daha ba\u015fka bir \u015fey mi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesinden kalm\u0131\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7izik h\u00e2l\u00e2 duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7ocukken bisikletinin gidonunu \u00e7arpt\u0131\u011f\u0131 izdi bu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O zaman babas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlar gibiydi. Azarlanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ama babas\u0131 g\u00fclerek, \u201cBir \u00e7izik oldu diye ev y\u0131k\u0131lmaz,\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Buraya kadar hat\u0131rlayabiliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama sanki o anda orada ba\u015fka bir \u015fey daha vard\u0131.
\u0130nsan de\u011fildi.
Daha al\u00e7akta.
Ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n yak\u0131n\u0131nda.<\/p>\n\n\n

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\"Hand
Some memories remain only as a feeling beneath the fingertips.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f kap\u0131n\u0131n pasl\u0131 k\u0131sm\u0131na parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 dokundurdu. P\u00fcr\u00fczl\u00fc his parmak ucunda kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ke\u015fke haf\u0131za da b\u00f6yle olsayd\u0131. En az\u0131ndan bir k\u0131sm\u0131na dokunabilseydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama ger\u00e7ekte, hat\u0131rlayabildi\u011fi yerler tuhaf bir \u015fekilde net kal\u0131yor, en \u00e7ok bilmek istedi\u011fi yer ise bembeyaz bo\u015fluk gibi duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7ocuklu\u011fundan bir yaz.
Kap\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7 taraf\u0131.
Babas\u0131n\u0131n pantolon pa\u00e7as\u0131.
\u00c7\u00f6melmi\u015f h\u00e2li.
Ve onun yan\u0131nda olmas\u0131 gereken bir \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Belki bir k\u00f6pekti, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama buna hemen inanamad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ger\u00e7ekten bir k\u00f6pek olsayd\u0131, daha net hat\u0131rlamas\u0131 gerekirdi.
Rengini, b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, en az\u0131ndan sesini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama geriye kalan tek \u015fey, \u201cbabas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda duran bir g\u00f6lge\u201d hissiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu belirsizlik, aksine, i\u00e7inde daha \u00e7ok kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evin i\u00e7i sessizdi.
Pencereler kapal\u0131yd\u0131.
T\u00fcl perde neredeyse hi\u00e7 k\u0131p\u0131rdam\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kimse uyanmam\u0131\u015f de\u011fildi. Ama bu evde bazen, evin kendisi nefesini tutuyormu\u015f gibi gelen sabahlar olurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6tesindeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bah\u00e7eye bakt\u0131. Saks\u0131lar\u0131n topra\u011f\u0131 kuruydu. K\u00f6\u015fedeki hortum d\u00fczg\u00fcnce sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f duruyordu. Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015fti. D\u00fcn de, \u00f6nceki g\u00fcn de ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde oradayd\u0131. Ama bug\u00fcn, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar \u201cgeride b\u0131rak\u0131lacak \u015feyler\u201d gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O s\u0131rada giri\u015f kap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131kan Deniz\u2019di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir elinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7\u00f6p po\u015feti, di\u011fer kolunda mandal sepeti vard\u0131. Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bir an durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNe yap\u0131yorsun?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Sesi sert de\u011fildi.
Su\u00e7lar gibi de de\u011fildi, endi\u015felenmi\u015f gibi de.
Sadece, burada olmamas\u0131 gereken bir saatte a\u011fabeyinin kap\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda durdu\u011funu oldu\u011fu gibi s\u00f6ze d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cHi\u00e7.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f b\u00f6yle dedi, ama cevab\u0131n\u0131n ne kadar zay\u0131f \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kendisi de fark etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deniz kap\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7 taraf\u0131na kadar geldi ve a\u011fabeyinin y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cHi\u00e7 gibi bir y\u00fcz\u00fcn yok.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f g\u00fclmedi.
G\u00fclebilecek gibi de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deniz \u00e7\u00f6p po\u015fetini ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBir yere mi gittin?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBiraz.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cUlus?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bu ismi duyunca Bar\u0131\u015f biraz \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNereden anlad\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cAyakkab\u0131lar\u0131n.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz a\u011fabeyinin ayaklar\u0131na bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cEvin \u00f6n\u00fcnde dola\u015fmakla olacak kir de\u011fil bu.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bunu s\u00f6yleyi\u015f bi\u00e7imi \u00e7ok Deniz\u2019e benziyordu.
Duygudan \u00f6nce ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6ren bir yan\u0131 vard\u0131.
Ama o ger\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rme bi\u00e7imi, bazen a\u011fabeyinin ka\u00e7acak yerini kapat\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cGeri mi d\u00f6nd\u00fcn?\u201d diye sordu Deniz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f bu soruya hemen cevap veremedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Evet, bu do\u011fruydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama \u201cd\u00f6nmek\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc, evin i\u00e7ine girmeyi de kaps\u0131yor gibi geliyordu. O kadar\u0131na hen\u00fcz karar vermemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u2026Sadece ge\u00e7tim.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi.
A\u011fabeyinin yalan s\u00f6ylemekte iyi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 eskiden beri bilen bir y\u00fcz\u00fc vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Soka\u011f\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan eski bir minib\u00fcs yava\u015f\u00e7a ge\u00e7ti.
Sesi uzakla\u015f\u0131nca evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki sessizlik geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fazla sessizdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deniz kap\u0131 dire\u011fine yasland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cGidiyor musun?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bu soru \u00f6ncekinden daha do\u011frudand\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f eve bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pencereler. Duvar. Kap\u0131. \u00c7izik.
Hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6lge.
Hat\u0131rlamas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan k\u00f6pek.<\/p>\n\n\n

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\"Old
A silent gate where forgotten memories still linger.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n
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\u201cHen\u00fcz bilmiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cAma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsun.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u2026Evet.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallamad\u0131.
\u0130tiraz da etmedi.
Sadece g\u00f6zlerini biraz k\u0131st\u0131 ve evin i\u00e7ine do\u011fru bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBen \u00e7ocukken,\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBabam\u0131n pe\u015finden gitmi\u015ftim bir kere.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131.
Bunu ilk kez duyuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNereye kadar?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cKap\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131na kadar.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz hafif\u00e7e g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cAnnem daha \u00f6tesine olmaz diye durdurdu.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bu k\u0131sa s\u00f6zlerin i\u00e7ine uzun bir zaman kapanm\u0131\u015f gibiydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Belki de bu evde, kimsenin s\u00f6ylemedi\u011fi buna benzer bir\u00e7ok sahne kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Giden bir baban\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131.
Ard\u0131ndan gitmek isteyen bir \u00e7ocuk.
Durduran bir anne.
S\u00f6ze d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmeden biten bir sabah.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cSen?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNe?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cHat\u0131rlam\u0131yor musun? Babam\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f hemen cevap veremedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hat\u0131rl\u0131yordu.
Ama yetmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Y\u00fcz\u00fc de sesi de par\u00e7alar h\u00e2linde kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
Ama nas\u0131l biri oldu\u011fu hi\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u2026Hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyler var.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bunu s\u00f6yledikten sonra Bar\u0131\u015f kap\u0131ya bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cAma tuhaf.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNe?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBabam\u0131n yan\u0131nda bir k\u00f6pek varm\u0131\u015f gibi geliyor.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fc biraz de\u011fi\u015fti.
\u015ea\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0131, duraksad\u0131 m\u0131, hemen anla\u015f\u0131lmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cK\u00f6pek?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cSadece \u00f6yle geliyor. Net hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum diyemem.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6tesindeki bah\u00e7eye bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Elbette orada hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu.
Sadece kuru saks\u0131lar ve sabah \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBen hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum,\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cAma bu evde b\u00f6yle \u015feyler \u00e7ok, de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cNas\u0131l \u015feyler?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cTam hat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u00e2lde varm\u0131\u015f gibi gelen \u015feyler.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bu s\u00f6z, Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden daha derin girdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu evde ger\u00e7ekten b\u00f6yle \u015feyler \u00e7oktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6ylenmemi\u015f \u015feyler.
Ona anlat\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f \u015feyler.
G\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f olmas\u0131 gereken ama \u015fekli kalmam\u0131\u015f \u015feyler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131 da \u00f6yleydi.
Ve \u015fimdi, k\u00f6pe\u011fin g\u00f6lgesi de bunlar\u0131n aras\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deniz \u00e7\u00f6p po\u015fetini tekrar eline ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u0130\u00e7eri girecek misin?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Soru yumu\u015fakt\u0131.
Ama yumu\u015fak oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in daha zordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f eve bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u00e7eri girerse, ayn\u0131 sessizlik onu bekleyecekti.
Koruyan bir sessizlik.
Ve bir \u015feyleri saklamaya devam eden bir sessizlik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201c\u2026Daha de\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Deniz a\u011fabeyine bakarak hafif\u00e7e ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cB\u00f6yle diyece\u011fini biliyordum.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n

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\"Bar\u0131\u015f
Some silences are shared without ever becoming words.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Sonra kap\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131na yaln\u0131zca bir ad\u0131m att\u0131 ve a\u011fabeyinin yan\u0131nda durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130kisi bir s\u00fcre ayn\u0131 y\u00f6ne bakarak sessizce durdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki sokak yine sessizdi.
Bir yerden tabak \u00e7anak sesi geldi.
\u00dcst kattaki bir pencere kapand\u0131.
Uzakta bir k\u00f6pek bir kez havlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sesi yak\u0131n de\u011fildi.
Hangi evin k\u00f6pe\u011fi oldu\u011fu da anla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama o k\u0131sa havlama, az \u00f6nceki beyaz hat\u0131ray\u0131 biraz sarst\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131.
Kap\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgesi.
A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da bir varl\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ger\u00e7ekten k\u00f6pek miydi?
Yoksa \u015fimdi kendisi sonradan buna anlam vermeye mi \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilmiyordu.
Ama Bar\u0131\u015f, belirsiz kalan \u015feylerin sonradan b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc yava\u015f yava\u015f \u00f6\u011frenmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6nce Deniz hareket etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cBen \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131 asaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cTamam.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cAbi.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cH\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

K\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre kelime arad\u0131. Sonunda do\u011frudan s\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sadece eve de\u011fil, soka\u011f\u0131n ilerisine bakarak al\u00e7ak sesle s\u00f6yledi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u201cS\u00fcrekli geriye bakarsan, ne oldu\u011funu da g\u00f6remezsin.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bunu b\u0131rak\u0131p kap\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inden geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Giri\u015f kap\u0131s\u0131 kapand\u0131.
Ev yeniden sessizle\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f orada tek ba\u015f\u0131na kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Az \u00f6nceye kadar bu ev \u201cd\u00f6n\u00fclecek yer\u201d gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.
\u015eimdi biraz farkl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Belki de buras\u0131, d\u00f6n\u00fcp d\u00f6nmemeye karar verilen yer de\u011fil, giderken neyi yan\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlatan yerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Neredeyse hi\u00e7 r\u00fczg\u00e2r yoktu.
Buna ra\u011fmen kap\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f eski bir bez par\u00e7as\u0131 \u00e7ok hafif\u00e7e k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n

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A silent gate where forgotten memories still linger.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f o k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131ya bakarken, bir kez daha kap\u0131daki \u00e7izi\u011fe dokundu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7ocukken bu kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde ger\u00e7ekten bir k\u00f6pek varsa.
Babas\u0131yla birlikte mi duruyordu?
Yoksa babas\u0131n\u0131 u\u011furlar gibi orada m\u0131yd\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Cevap yoktu.
Ama cevaps\u0131zl\u0131k, bu kez g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcnde eskisinden biraz farkl\u0131 bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131kla kald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ev hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemez.
Ama sadece s\u00f6ylenmeyen \u015feylerin i\u00e7inde kalan hat\u0131ralar vard\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f yava\u015f\u00e7a elini \u00e7ekti ve soka\u011f\u0131n ilerisine bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hen\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f de\u011fildi.
Ama art\u0131k sadece karars\u0131zl\u0131k da de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Geriye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 evin \u00f6n\u00fcnde,
hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00f6pe\u011fin g\u00f6lgesi yaln\u0131zca sessizce kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bar\u0131\u015f, Ankara\u2019daki sessiz eve geri d\u00f6nerken pasl\u0131 kap\u0131n\u0131n ve sabah\u0131n i\u00e7inde babas\u0131n\u0131n hat\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 ve kaybolmayan k\u00f6pe\u011fin g\u00f6lgesini yeniden hisseder.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":9622,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"swell_btn_cv_data":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[992,988],"tags":[1205,1000,1320,1030,1157,1318,1417,1319,1416,1312,1231],"class_list":["post-8390","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-baris-noah","category-story","tag-aile-hatirasi","tag-ankara","tag-babanin-hatirasi","tag-baris-ve-noah","tag-duygusal-bosluk","tag-eski-ev","tag-fathers-memory","tag-kopegin-golgesi","tag-melancholic-atmosphere","tag-old-house","tag-sessiz-sabah"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8390","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8390"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8390\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10031,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8390\/revisions\/10031"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9622"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8390"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8390"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8390"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}