{"id":8407,"date":"2026-07-07T21:00:00","date_gmt":"2026-07-07T12:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/?p=8407"},"modified":"2026-06-04T16:43:11","modified_gmt":"2026-06-04T07:43:11","slug":"baris-noah-episode-19-wind-of-departure","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/baris-noah-episode-19-wind-of-departure\/","title":{"rendered":"19B\u00f6l\u00fcm\u3000Ankara\u2019n\u0131n tepesinde r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n arkadan itti\u011fi an\uff5cS\u00f6ze d\u00f6k\u00fclemeyen bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f karar\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Sessiz yerlerde de\u011fil, y\u00fcksek yerlerde, insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde g\u00f6rmezden geldi\u011fi \u015feyler birden saklanamaz hale gelir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna yakla\u015fan \u0131\u015f\u0131k, Ankara\u2019n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne geni\u015f ve ince bir tabaka gibi yay\u0131l\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu \u015fehir yoku\u015fludur. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131dan bak\u0131nca g\u00f6z hep binalara tak\u0131l\u0131r. Ama biraz yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc daha b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Kuru r\u00fczg\u00e2r, otlar\u0131n seyrek oldu\u011fu topra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnden ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kum taneleri \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na havalan\u0131yordu. Uzakta beyaz binalar\u0131n s\u0131ralar\u0131, onun da \u00f6tesinde silikle\u015fmi\u015f bir \u015fehir hatt\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131lay\u2019daki kalabal\u0131k, Ulus\u2019un eski sokaklar\u0131, Hamam\u00f6n\u00fc\u2019n\u00fcn sessiz ta\u015f yollar\u0131\u2026 Buradan bak\u0131nca hepsi ayn\u0131 \u015fehrin i\u00e7indeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f, o a\u00e7\u0131k yerde tek ba\u015f\u0131na duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Buraya neden geldi\u011fini s\u0131rayla anlatamazd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hamam\u00f6n\u00fc\u2019nden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra eve d\u00f6nmek istememi\u015fti.
\u0130stasyona gitmek i\u00e7inse i\u00e7i hen\u00fcz haz\u0131r de\u011fildi.
Ama d\u00fcz yollar\u0131n, kalabal\u0131k caddelerin i\u00e7inde de kalmak istemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu y\u00fczden ad\u0131mlar\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f yukar\u0131 y\u00f6neldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eskiden beri, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler toparlanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, sebepsizce y\u00fcksek bir yere \u00e7\u0131kmak isterdi. G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc geni\u015fledik\u00e7e, i\u00e7indeki daralma biraz gev\u015fer gibi olurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bug\u00fcn de belki \u00f6yleydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama buraya gelince anlad\u0131.
Manzara geni\u015fleyince, insan\u0131n i\u00e7i geni\u015flemiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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R\u00fczg\u00e2r sert de\u011fildi.
\u0130tecek kadar de\u011fil.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Ama sanki durup kalan birinin s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 sessizce yoklayan bir r\u00fczg\u00e2rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f \u015fehre bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ankara.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n

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\"Ankara
The city stayed silent while the wind carried something forward.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Bu \u015fehirde do\u011fmu\u015ftu. Bu sessizli\u011fin i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bak\u0131nca anlatmas\u0131 kolayd\u0131. Ba\u015fkent, siyaset, d\u00fczen.
Ama onun i\u00e7in Ankara ba\u015fka bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Karar veremeden ya\u015famaya devam edilebilen bir \u015fehir.
Sessizlikle mant\u0131\u011f\u0131n ayn\u0131 evde yan yana durabildi\u011fi bir \u015fehir.
\u0130nsan \u00e7ok olsa da, i\u00e7te yaln\u0131z kalman\u0131n kolay oldu\u011fu bir \u015fehir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Belki de bu y\u00fczden burada kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

14. b\u00f6l\u00fcmde K\u0131z\u0131lay\u2019da durdu\u011funda, ak\u0131\u015ftan koptu\u011funu fark etmi\u015fti.
15. b\u00f6l\u00fcmde, geri d\u00f6n\u00fcyormu\u015f gibi yaparak ya\u015fayamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
16. b\u00f6l\u00fcmde Ulus\u2019ta, \u00f6nce d\u00f6nmemeye karar vermesi gerekti\u011fi s\u00f6ylenmi\u015fti.
17. b\u00f6l\u00fcmde, evin \u00f6n\u00fcnde babas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda durmu\u015f olabilecek bir k\u00f6pe\u011fin g\u00f6lgesi akl\u0131na gelmi\u015fti.
18. b\u00f6l\u00fcmde Hamam\u00f6n\u00fc\u2019nde, birinin a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u201c\u00e7a\u011fr\u0131lan bir y\u00fcz\u201d oldu\u011funu duymu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Hepsi ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 \u015feylerdi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Tek tek bak\u0131nca, rastlant\u0131 denebilirdi.
Ama on sekiz b\u00f6l\u00fcm birikince, art\u0131k o kelime yetmiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f nefes verdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Gitmek i\u00e7in bir nedeni h\u00e2l\u00e2 yoktu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131.
Annesinin saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fey.
K\u00f6pe\u011fin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi duran o belirsizlik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bunlar\u0131 s\u0131ralayabilirdi.
Ama hi\u00e7biri tam oturmuyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Belki de en do\u011fru ifade \u015fuydu\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Burada kalmaya devam etmek art\u0131k daha tuhaft\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n

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\"Bar\u0131\u015f
The wind moved first, and his body followed after.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Bu duygu, i\u00e7indeki en net \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u00fczg\u00e2r tekrar ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kuru otlar hafif\u00e7e k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ta\u015f yuvarland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O s\u0131rada biraz ileride, al\u00e7ak bir kayan\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde bir \u015fey g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n

\n
\"A
Something waited quietly between the rocks and the wind.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n
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Bir anl\u0131k.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsan de\u011fildi.
Daha a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayakta durmaktan \u00e7ok, sessizce bak\u0131yormu\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f nefesini tuttu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6zlerini k\u0131sarak bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu.
Sadece uzayan g\u00f6lgeler.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f da olabilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama hemen ard\u0131ndan, kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n derininde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir ses duyuldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Metal.
Hafif bir temas.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Tasman\u0131n sesi gibi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen, akl\u0131 de\u011fil bedeniydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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D\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Kimse yoktu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Sadece r\u00fczg\u00e2r, biraz ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015f gibi yana\u011f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f\u2019\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir \u015fey yerini buldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ad\u0131 yoktu.
Ama art\u0131k ink\u00e2r edilemiyordu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki o g\u00f6lge.
Evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki an\u0131.
Hamam\u00f6n\u00fc\u2019ndeki ge\u00e7i\u015f.
Az \u00f6nce duydu\u011fu o ses.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayn\u0131 \u015fey olduklar\u0131n\u0131 kan\u0131tlayamazd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ama ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 \u015feyler gibi de g\u00f6remezdi art\u0131k.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u00f6meldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Elini kuru topra\u011fa koydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ekilmi\u015fti. \u00dcst y\u00fczey hafif serindi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Biri neden gitti\u011fini sorsa, cevap veremezdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131 i\u00e7in mi.
Kendisi i\u00e7in mi.
O k\u00f6pek i\u00e7in mi.
Yoksa ad\u0131 olmayan bir \u015fey i\u00e7in mi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ama bir \u015fey kesindi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Burada kalmaya devam etmek art\u0131k bir se\u00e7enek de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Burada kalmak g\u00fcvenliydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evi vard\u0131.
\u015eehri tan\u0131yordu.
Yollar\u0131 biliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Masadaki yerini, pencereden giren \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ama b\u00fct\u00fcn o \u201cbildi\u011fi\u201d \u015feylerin i\u00e7inde, en \u00e7ok bilmek istedi\u011fi \u015fey yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Babas\u0131 neyi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.
Neden haritaya bir hedef yazmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
Annesi neden konu\u015fmuyordu.
Ve neden r\u00fczg\u00e2r, hep onun s\u0131rt\u0131na dokunuyordu gibi geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bunlar\u0131 bilmeden de ya\u015fayabilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ankara buna izin veren bir \u015fehirdi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Eksikle ya\u015famay\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn k\u0131lan.
Mant\u0131kla bo\u015fluklar\u0131 dolduran.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ama o art\u0131k geri d\u00f6nemiyordu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bu bir karar de\u011fildi.
Daha \u00e7ok, kabullenmeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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G\u00fcvende kalan taraf\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rakmak gibi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc renk de\u011fi\u015ftiriyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ak\u015fama yakla\u015fmadan \u00f6nceki o a\u00e7\u0131k beyazla soluk mavinin kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 an.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzakta araba sesleri y\u00fckseliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eehir her zamanki gibi ak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmiyormu\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Tam o s\u0131rada, arkas\u0131nda r\u00fczg\u00e2r bir kez daha g\u00fc\u00e7lendi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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F\u0131rt\u0131na de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Ama bu kez daha belirgindi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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\u0130tilmi\u015f gibi oldu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Yar\u0131m ad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Yine de ileri.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f d\u00f6nmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00f6nse, yine bakmak isteyecekti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6lge var m\u0131.
K\u00f6pek var m\u0131.
Ger\u00e7ekten bir \u015fey var m\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ama art\u0131k \u00f6nce g\u00f6rmek zorunda de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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G\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in gidecekti.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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S\u0131ra buydu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Gitmek i\u00e7in nedeni h\u00e2l\u00e2 yoktu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Ama burada kalmak i\u00e7in nedeni art\u0131k yoktu.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Bu fark k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f son bir kez Ankara\u2019ya bakt\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu \u015fehir onu b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sessizli\u011fi, karars\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131, babas\u0131n\u0131n yoklu\u011funu\u2026
Cevaps\u0131z ya\u015famay\u0131 burada \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Bu y\u00fczden Ankara sadece bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Onun ilk \u015fekliydi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Ve \u015fimdi, o \u015fekilden biraz sapma zaman\u0131 gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

R\u00fczg\u00e2r durmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ama s\u0131rt\u0131ndaki his kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f yava\u015f\u00e7a a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 inmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nereye gitti\u011fini s\u00f6ylemedi.<\/p>\n\n\n

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\"Bar\u0131\u015f
The journey had already begun before he found the words for it.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Bileti yoktu.
Kimseye s\u00f6ylememi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ama ad\u0131mlar\u0131 art\u0131k daha netti.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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K\u0131z\u0131lay\u2019daki o duraksamadan daha net.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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Nedeni yok de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Sadece, anlatacak kelimeleri hen\u00fcz yoktu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yoku\u015fun ortas\u0131nda yine o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck metal sesi duyuldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Bu kez arkas\u0131ndan de\u011fil.
R\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n i\u00e7inden.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Bar\u0131\u015f durmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Durmamak, ilk kez bir cevaba yak\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ankara\u2019n\u0131n sessiz tepelerinde Bar\u0131\u015f ilk kez gitmenin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetti. R\u00fczg\u00e2r yaln\u0131zca arkas\u0131ndan esiyordu ve \u015fehir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da sessizce uzakla\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":9689,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"swell_btn_cv_data":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[992,988],"tags":[1350,1347,1030,1210,1433,1430,1429,1348,1209,1351,1431,1349,1428],"class_list":["post-8407","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-baris-noah","category-story","tag-ankara-tepeleri","tag-ayrilik-hissi","tag-baris-ve-noah","tag-duygusal-yolculuk","tag-emotional-distance","tag-fading-evening-light","tag-hill-above-the-city","tag-icsel-catisma","tag-sessiz-anlatim","tag-siirsel-atmosfer","tag-silent-wind","tag-umut-ve-yalnizlik","tag-wind-of-departure"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8407","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8407"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8407\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10035,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8407\/revisions\/10035"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/9689"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8407"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8407"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worldwatch.tokyo\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8407"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}